(From our very first Sip & Tell, October 17, 2020)
As I sit here surrounded by some of the best women I know, reflecting on memories created by THE best woman I have ever known, I am overcome with a wave of gratitude so fierce it's difficult to stay in this moment. I am tempted to ride the wave of emotion into that unreachable space in my own head and spirit. To retreat into the solitude I love so much. Instead - maybe because of my age or perhaps because of the profound shift 2020 is forcing on all of us - I find myself anchoring in THIS present. This moment that feels as if the last 49 years have lead me to this barstool, at this counter, in this kitchen, with these women.
I shared a memory of my mother's Sunday pot roast and how important those memories are to my brother and me. Years ago, both of us shared our individual experiences surrounding these days for one of Mom's church projects, and both referenced the incredible aroma that filled the house nearly every Sunday of our childhood. That smell... the comfort and safety we felt walking in the door of our our home after church. I have never been able to pinpoint or intentionally recreate the emotion brought on by that smell, though I have tried!
I feel it today. I feel the smell of her Sunday kitchen. It's home. I feel the sweet aroma of love, purpose, and family. I can sense the whole of who I am created to be.
2020 came after me and my plans almost as if she personified as the villain in a Marvel movie, and I am so freaking glad she did. Because right here... on this bar stool... at the counter... in this kitchen... with these women...
Is exactly where I am meant to be.
(Why Amazing Grace: 1 - The most graceful badasses I know are sitting at this counter. 2 - Embracing grace and gratitude at every turn in my life, as much as I was capable of at the time, has brought me here.)
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